Leave Me Alone

I'm no pretender. I can't potray a happy face when I'm not. Don't ask me why because I just can't. Sorry to be a party pooper. I didn't ask for you to seek for my companionship. If you think I'm spoiling your good mood. Then just leave me alone!

Doa Seorg Kekasih

"Jika mahu mendapatkan yang soleh, kurangkan agenda menCARI si Soleh, tetapi berusahalah menJADI yang solehah. Jika inginkan yang solehah, janganlah cerewet menCARI yang solehah, tetapi berusahalah menJADI yang soleh. Bertemu yang solehah, solehahnya dia belum tentu kekal. Bertemu yang soleh, solehnya boleh berubah..kerana si soleh dan si solehah adalah insan biasa"

Robert Frost's

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

MASALAHNYER..MANE SATU NAK PILIH :((

contradictions

sepi dalam keramaian..
terjaga dalam mimpi..
murung dalam kegembiraan..
tangisan dalam suka..

Its so Easy if i'm heartless

In the darkness, I felt the icy breeze on my face as I kept on falling. I prayed that i will hit the bottom SOON so that PAIN wont linger no more.

Salahkah aku?

Disturbing thoughts.

Was it wrong of me to have done what I did? All these while I couldn't help but felt very much depressed each time I think about it. That mustn't be a GOOD sign. :(

What's wrong with giving and not expecting anything in return?
What's wrong with spending for the benefit of others?
What's wrong with showing love to others more than they do to you?
What's wrong with being nice to people even though they treat you like dirt?
What's wrong with trying to forget the past painful events and try to stand up for what I believe in instead?

I couldn't shake off our conversation on the phone yesterday. You told me I SHOULD NOT ACT THAT WAY because people will take advantage of me. It was like "BEWaRE! EVERYONE OUT THERE ARE EVIL AND SELFISH. ONLY USE OTHERS FOR THE BENEFITS OF THEMSELVES" to you. And that I should always put myself first.

Another one told me that relationship with people should always be a two-way thing, where you have to GIVE AND RECEIVE. He said there has to be MUTUAL RESPECT. If you keep GIVING IN and GIVE GIVE GIVE most of the time, then that person is no friend to you.

Knowing that you are actually trying to give me advice, I didn't dare to speak up. All I could do was wept silently. How could you think such thoughts? Such meanful thoughts... But thinking about it...was people really taking advantage? Is it true people are that mean to that extent to USE PEOPLE to achieve what they want? Sangatlah menyedihkan if that is true =(