The Rookie Blogger Story

Ketidakadilan?

2011-07-07T08:47:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Terdetik pula untuk meluahkan perasaan di sini walaupun tahu tak de sape nak bace pun =D tapi tak kirelah, some thoughts are better written down and expressed rather than to be left just as thoughts which most probably will be forgotten in time.

So, the other day i was listening to this bit from the radio about unfairness in life. How we have contributed a lot in the Company. OT siang malam, hjung minggu pun terpaksa buat kerja kat office. Sampai kengkawan lain semua kritik kate xde life, a WORKAHOLIC. Dah la kena tebalkan muka dgn kritikan2... bonus tak dapat, OT tak dibayar.. Gaji tak naik.. Mesti rasa tak fair kan. Dan kebiasaanye kite akan mencari sesuatu / orang lain utk kite salahkan. Salah satu PESALAH utama adalah BOSS :p Memang bley dikatekan slalunye boss akan dipersalahkan... kite akan complaint job bnyk masuk, keje melambak tapi gaji tak naik2... padahal bos bley plak nak beli kete baru sebijik..

Well this is only one example which i can personally relate to. Ada bnyk lagi example2, as a student, in relationships, in a community etc. Basically, its about human nature that we want something in return for the goodness or the extra something that we have done. Macam kate pepatah, buat baik dibalas dgn kebaikan, buat jahat dibalas dgn kejahatan.

But if we think about it, kalau kita ikhlas bekerja dgn niat utk mencari keredhaanNya, maka mengapa perlu dipersoalkan balasannya? Apakah keikhlasan itu tidak ada? Atau mungkin kita terlau mengejar hal2 duniawi dan terlupa akan ganjaran / balasan yang mungkin kita terima di akhirat nanti. Sama2lah kita fikirkan2 dan peringat2kanlah seandainya terlupa =)

Understanding People

2011-07-03T20:51:00.005+08:00

Understanding people is definitely not an easy subject. People are always changing due to a lot of factors be it within a short term or over a long period. However i've learned that to UNDERSTAND people is very pertinent, simply because we deal with people basically EVERYDAY and EVERYTIME.

There's this one highly recommended book --> '7 Habits of Highly Effective People' written by Stephen Covey. Its very famous. Buku ni dah lama dah publish, around 1989. But, to me, i prefer to recommend orang untuk bace another version of the above, which is --> '7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens' by Sean Covey (anak Stephen Covey). This version is way lighter and i can relate more to the examples given. Tapi still tak khatam lagi eventhough buku tu i bought in the year 2000 :p

In their books, they have also highlighted HABIT #5 - SEEK FIRST TO BE UNDERSTAND, THEN TO BE UNDERSTOOD. But the problem is, we always tend to be understood first. We always want to voice out what we feel and make people understand us. Understand our ways. Well, tak salahkan nak suruh orang faham. I mean thats like the whole point of getting to know each other. Tak ke? HOWEVER, i've noticed that this doesnt really work.

It is indeed very true that in order for me to handle things more efficiently, I have to firstly seek to understand prior to being understood. Rasa cam susah giler je nak buat sbb i've always believed that someone should always follow what they think is right. Gerak hati tu penting. Tapi cam selalu salah je.. Haha.. Hermph ... tak pe... ape2 pun kite memang kene trus cekalkan hati dan meneruskan usaha! GambatTe!

2011-03-05T11:08:00.001+08:00

Leave Me Alone

2011-01-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

I'm no pretender. I can't potray a happy face when I'm not. Don't ask me why because I just can't. Sorry to be a party pooper. I didn't ask for you to seek for my companionship. If you think I'm spoiling your good mood. Then just leave me alone!

Doa Seorg Kekasih

2010-09-05T16:58:00.004+08:00

"Jika mahu mendapatkan yang soleh, kurangkan agenda menCARI si Soleh, tetapi berusahalah menJADI yang solehah. Jika inginkan yang solehah, janganlah cerewet menCARI yang solehah, tetapi berusahalah menJADI yang soleh. Bertemu yang solehah, solehahnya dia belum tentu kekal. Bertemu yang soleh, solehnya boleh berubah..kerana si soleh dan si solehah adalah insan biasa"

Robert Frost's

2010-09-03T12:46:00.003+08:00

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

MASALAHNYER..MANE SATU NAK PILIH :((

contradictions

2010-07-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

sepi dalam keramaian..
terjaga dalam mimpi..
murung dalam kegembiraan..
tangisan dalam suka..

Its so Easy if i'm heartless

2010-07-19T00:53:00.005+08:00

In the darkness, I felt the icy breeze on my face as I kept on falling. I prayed that i will hit the bottom SOON so that PAIN wont linger no more.

Salahkah aku?

2010-05-27T07:26:00.004+08:00

Disturbing thoughts.

Was it wrong of me to have done what I did? All these while I couldn't help but felt very much depressed each time I think about it. That mustn't be a GOOD sign. :(

What's wrong with giving and not expecting anything in return?
What's wrong with spending for the benefit of others?
What's wrong with showing love to others more than they do to you?
What's wrong with being nice to people even though they treat you like dirt?
What's wrong with trying to forget the past painful events and try to stand up for what I believe in instead?

I couldn't shake off our conversation on the phone yesterday. You told me I SHOULD NOT ACT THAT WAY because people will take advantage of me. It was like "BEWaRE! EVERYONE OUT THERE ARE EVIL AND SELFISH. ONLY USE OTHERS FOR THE BENEFITS OF THEMSELVES" to you. And that I should always put myself first.

Another one told me that relationship with people should always be a two-way thing, where you have to GIVE AND RECEIVE. He said there has to be MUTUAL RESPECT. If you keep GIVING IN and GIVE GIVE GIVE most of the time, then that person is no friend to you.

Knowing that you are actually trying to give me advice, I didn't dare to speak up. All I could do was wept silently. How could you think such thoughts? Such meanful thoughts... But thinking about it...was people really taking advantage? Is it true people are that mean to that extent to USE PEOPLE to achieve what they want? Sangatlah menyedihkan if that is true =(

Life is As How We Perceive It To Be

2010-05-21T13:44:00.004+08:00

Gloomy Day

2010-05-14T13:04:00.004+08:00

14-May-2010.
Woke up to a gloomy morning. Not feeling so good. Wish that everyday and everything are not as complicated as it is.

*CAN WE PRETEND THAT AIRPLANES IN THE ARE LIKE SHOOTING STARS...I COULD REALLY USE A WISH RIGHT NOW*

Get Back Up

2010-04-29T07:09:00.009+08:00

*sigh* Ever felt that sometimes you just keep falling and falling and still falling until finally you hit the ground so hard that you felt hopeless? Well, i know the feeling. Everytime you tried to motivate yourself to get back up. Put in MORE effort. Straighten things up. The heavier the burden became. Even worse when you realize that u've actually made things worst, more complicated. Cold.Useless.Hopeless.Undeniable unbrilliant.CompletetlyZero. Thats the feeling.

If you have ever come through this phase...well, here's a piece of advice...GET BACK UP QUICKLY EVERYTIME YOU FALL. DONT TAKE TOO MUCH TIME DWELLING ON THE PROBLEMS. RECTIFY AND PROCEED. AND ALWAYS ALWAYS NEVER FORGET TO PERFORM THE 5 TIME PRAYERS. Those are what my Mom always told me.

So, lets move on and keep up the spirits yall!!! =)

SUCCESS IS A JOURNEY AS WELL AS A DESTINATION AND THE ROAD IS ALWAYS UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Cold hard slap

2010-04-22T23:04:00.009+08:00

And so the rookie blogger story begins with the Empire State of Mind.

Being in the so called Professional line, they say we should always ACT like a professional. As if theres no emotions involve. Everything is purely WORK. Nothing else. Push everything else aside. At least that was what i thought.

I remembered a very long time ago, I used to hate the way people of high profession carry themselves. Heads up high, stern face, so stuck up as if they are the only ones who know-it-all. Neatly pressed clothes. Well-polished shoes, not even a single missed spot. And not to forget always the similar professional smile spreads across the face. Not too wide not too tight.

As much as i admire the great confidence they showed off, I cannot push away the thought that these people are actually hiding behind all these perfections. HYPOCRYTES!! Since then i've promised myself never to become like that EVER. Never to hide my imperfections. I am who I am. =D

Years have passed and i've gotten to know a lot of those whom i've once labeled as HYPOCRYTES and I am very much ashamed to admit that I myself have turned out to be exactly one of THEM. The saddest part is that I didnt even notice it until things started to go wrong. Everyting went wrong. I felt as if my life is stumbling down the hills i've climbed. At that point when I realize, it came as a cold hard slap right to my face. All these while I was wrong to judge. Too quick to judge.

First Post

2010-04-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

a rookie blogger story?? whats that?? haha...uhum2 ... testing2..